Jean Rabone

Jean Rabone and bowel cancer

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This is a continuation page from . This page covers 2008.


Thursday - 18/12/08

Jean in her new slippers

Merry Christmas to all our Readers!

Not a fat lot to report really, for the most part Jean has been quite good, one or two days not so good but that is to be expected. It depends on so many things, diet, exercise and medication. She has just spoken to a Lymphoedema nurse and will see her on the 7th of Jan. She appears to have said the right things to Jean and she immediately felt that it could have been brought on by our car journey to Bournemouth. When she discovered the number of radiotherapy shots that Jean has received in the pelvic area she was surprised it hadn't been brought on sooner.
She has given Jean some tips on how to manage this, one of which is support pants (favoured undergarment of Eastern European babes I believe), these will apply pressure in the right places as opposed to the wrong places where the pressure is being applied now. Surprisingly hot baths, from which Jean seems to get some relief, are actually bad, warm is ok but hot is a no no.
Hoping that Christmas brings you everything you wish for and importantly good health in 2009 - Steve and Jean X

Monday - 08/12/08


Just been to see Dr Geh and came away with some reasonable news, the tumour has no noticeable change. He reckons that the puffiness that Jean is experiencing is a Lymphoedema so it looks like two health professionals disagreeing here. It doesn't really matter as such in that the goods news is that he is NOT saying that the lymph nodes in the groin are growing, but rather they have previously been damaged when Jean was badly burned by the radiotherapy back in February, and that is what is causing the problem now. Sounds strange but this is welcome news to Jean.
An MRI scan is being arranged for the 7th of Jan with another diagnosis on the 12th.
It was Friday the 7th of December 2007 that Jean was called back to the surgery as there were some worrying indicators in her blood sample, so this has now been going 'knowingly' on for 12 months, and what a year it has been in more ways than one.
I can only hope that 2009 brings better luck to all of us!
Saturday - 29/11/08 There is no question that the internet is an incredible source of information, there is also no question in my mind that it can be a dangerous place. I had visited the cancerbackup site and typed in "swollen legs" most of the information that comes back refers to Lymphoedma, so given Jeans history this is what we suspected. This wasn't actually confirmed by Dr Geh when I suggested the possibility to him. Ruth the Macmillan nurse strongly suspected that it wasn't and saw that as a good thing. Yesterday we had a routine visit to the GP and he pretty much rejected the idea.
I get the impression that this condition results in heavy swelling rather than slight swelling. Jeans leg was measured and compared to her right leg and there was a 1cm difference in circumfrence, up to 2 cm appears to be ok. But, and this is the important thing, with a Lympoedema the skin  will not depress - the lymph nodes are blocked and so there is nowhere for the fluid to go, whereas if its some other sort of edema the skin will depress and Jean's quite clearly does.
Is this a good thing?, well at this moment in time most of the health professionals seem to think that it is, on the negative side we are not sure what is causing it. I personally think that the car travel was a factor, but it could be a growing node putting pressure on a blood vessel. Anyway Jean is relatively positive, elevating the foot resulted in some slight reduction in swelling so we shall persevere.

Hoorahhhhh I can spend spend spend next week and save 2.5% on all Vatable purchases, that means I should save 21p on Jean's Christmas present. Hey she's lucky I'm spending a tenner, I only normally spend a fiver!

Monday - 24/11/08 Since our return from Bournemouth Jean has been experiencing some discomfort in her left leg, there is some slight swelling and of course this has given her some concern. Fortunately we had a visit planned to Dr Geh and he has advised that this may be a Lymphoedema which occurs as a result of damage to the lymph nodes, which occurred when radiotherapy was directed at the pelvis. He wants us to monitor it and keep notes on the swelling and pain. It is manageable with exercise, massage, compression garments etc. The link does say that it can be caused by aircraft travel - and I always thought I was a fairly steady driver!
Good news though he has examined Jean and says that he can not detect any change in size of the tumour, so that's good. He is suggesting a scan in January.
Regarding the second opinion, the family friend, a doctor, that suggested this has since consulted an eminent Professor, he has advised that given the history, Jean is already in the best hands and travelling to either of the aforementioned places is unlikely to attain any benefit. Contrary to what we have read in newspapers etc. he has says that treatment in Britain is some of the best in the world.
Tuesday - 18/11/08 Some of you will know that we managed to get away for a few days down to Bournemouth to catch up with some old pals and Steve's Mom and Dad. Jean survived the journeys relatively unscathed and it was a welcome break for her to get away for a short while. It was good to catch up with everyone, everyone was very understanding and kind, and so that lifted Jean. The weather could have been kinder but at least it wasn't wall to wall rain. The hotel was very good and the room was excellent.
There were some Eastern European 'babes' working in the hotel but strangely they were nothing like the photographs of 'babes' that are normally sent to me which accompany marriage proposals.
Tuesday - 11/11/08 Nothing to report but I thought I ought to check in. Jean has been quite good for the past few days, it really is difficult to get your head around this at times.
A second opinion has been suggested by a good friend of mine, and sort of encouraged by Jean's GP, but where to go and who to see is difficult. Amongst the suggestions are Marseilles (France)  and Rochester (USA), getting there would be another story. It's not that we don't have faith in the existing team it's just that we appear to be waiting for bad news to come steaming over the hill rather than doing something about it.
As you will all know I am deeply saddened that the US presidential elections are over and they won't be back for another 2 years, providing there is no assassination. I suppose I could watch the BBC re runs and pretend I don't know the result; no worries "I'm an X Celebrity on Ice up the Jungle" starts soon, again (yawn). At least I could influence that result!
Does anyone know of a small island going cheap where I could get away from all of this? - must have excellent medical facilities, good weather etc. etc.
Monday - 3/11/08 Just been to Dr Geh its a case of no news is good news, he is saying the tumour doesn't appear to have grown in the past 3 weeks. Jean is pleased with this news even though she has had some severe pain during the past 7 days. Back to see him in 3 weeks time.
I say isn't this US presidential election exciting, I wish it happened more often. I'm really sad it will all be over soon.
Thursday - 23/10/08

Hello there – yes it is me – in the absence of any new and exciting developments I just thought I would say hello and, once again, thank you for taking the trouble to visit my blog. Life is pretty tame at the moment. I am just being monitored every 2 weeks to see what my uninvited guest is up to. We are hoping things are going to stay stable for a while but, who knows, I’m not known for lack of drama these days! My next appointment is 3rd November with the lovely Dr Geh so I will try to keep out of trouble until then. Hopefully he won’t feel the need to get his partner in crime, Mr Radley, involved with his cutlery set!

It was our 21st Anniversary last Friday – we celebrated with a Chinese takeaway at Jo and Geoff’s in Pedmore which was lovely, unfortunately just staying out until 10pm took it's toll on me the next day. We ordered far too much as usual and Steve – never one to waste things - spent the next 2 days eating the remainder in various forms. Surprisingly he is still alive!

Wednesday - 15/10/08 We were summoned to see the Dynamic Duo last night. In a nutshell the situation is not really that much different to last week. The situation is not straightforward, they are not ruling out APR but they are not keen on the idea either.
There is a possibility of more chemo-radiotherapy but there is only so much that can be delivered and Jean is very close to the limit. Furthermore if radiotherapy were delivered and then APR became necessary it could compromise the healing of the wound. The tumour has grown slightly since the last examination (22/09/08) and this concerns them, they are currently advising a watch and wait strategy with fortnightly examinations so they can dive in should the tumour grow to such a size where it causes problems and APR would either be a must or impossible. They are going away to consider other options: drugs; ablation; etc.
For those that are interested contrary to what I would have expected, we were advised that removal of the primary tumour does not stop the spread of the cancer.
Jean is still mentally upbeat and is off for some aromatherapy today courtesy of the NHS/Kemp hospice.
I'm off to watch Obama vs McCain (NOT!)
Sunday - 12/10/08

One cool dude

No notification of an appointment yet. Jean is bearing up well and with the exception of a blip on Saturday after a late girlie night on the sofa with Sally (calm down Ruscombe), she has been very positive mentally. Physically she is still in some pain and sitting is still a problem. Sunday we had a couple of walks and took this photo in the late afternoon sunshine, we hope you enjoyed this late summer which appears to have lasted longer than the real summer.
I guess most of you are worried about the financial situation and what would happen to your cash if the banks went belly up, the limit as it stands today only being £50k per institution. There are only so many bank accounts you can open!
I personally am worried about the presidential elections, what worries me is why the BBC think I am interested in them, I can't influence them (none of us can) so why is it rammed down my throat every night? What a waste of beepin time.
I'm still being pestered by Eastern European babes and it looks more of a tempter each day. Its strange I don't think I have ever seen an attractive Russian man - well I suppose the bloke who owns Chelsea FC looks quite attractive when you know his bank balance -  is there a female equivalent of beer goggles when you know how much a man is worth?
Monday - 06/10/08 Well it was what we had come to expect, the biopsy came back positive confirming the tumour has returned, the PET scan has shown that there is new disease albeit the volume of disease is low. At this moment in time, due to the complexities of Jean's case, there is no definite way forward and Jean will be asked to attend a meeting either in 1 weeks or 2 weeks time once this has been discussed at the multi-disciplinary meeting. Dr Geh is advising a watch and wait policy at the moment. Strangely the major surgery is unlikely to increase life expectancy but may improve quality of life. Mentally Jean is coping well with the situation, I think she came to terms with this a few weeks ago when they took the biopsy.
What a beeeping beep thing !!!!
Wednesday  - 01/10/08 Not a lot to report, Monday we had the MRI scan, Today we had the PET scan so Jean is walking around glowing bright green. She saw Dr Heywood yesterday, no good reason just that she needs pills and a sick note etc. He appeared to be suggesting that we exercise some caution if a major op is offered. Too soon to speculate and this could cause a downward spiral; whereas at the moment mentally Jean is very very good, physically she still has the pains in the backside.
Monday will be the Biggy. (Again). I know it's has been said before but this time the results/prognosis are really important.
Thursday - 25/09/08 We've had some blubby days and some good days. MRI scan on Monday PET scan on Wednesday verdict the following Monday. Doubt whether the biopsy will be back by then but it may be.
Expect the Worst - Hope for the Best!
Monday - 22/09/08 Well there are a few words I would like to put here but it might prevent your browser from opening!
Not the news we wanted, the Sigmoidoscopy was inconclusive, there is a nodule which has been 'biopsied'. To speed things up another MRI scan and another PET scan have been arranged. A major operation has been mentioned but is NOT certain, hence the scans. As you can imagine Jean is in bits, apologies if you get me if you call.
Thursday - 18/09/08 As some of you will know we went for the scan last night, we were not expecting any results but Dr Roy-Choudhury called us in. He was pleased with the liver and said if it were still looking like that at the 12 month scan it would be great, so no signs of disease in the liver at this 4 month milestone. Further he advised that the paraaortic lymph nodes had shrunk from 12mm to 9mm (importantly no increase in size) which was the point of the last round of chemo-radiotherapy. The proper analysis of the scan will come on Monday, but this at least is some good news. To celebrate Jean had sausage beans and chips from the chip shop - Boy do we know how to live! This is Rock-n-Roll!
Sunday - 14/09/08
Jean's 50th Birthday

Happy Birthday to Jean, Happy Birthday to Jean, Happy Birthday Dear Jeannie, Happy Birthday to Yooooooo!

If you didn't know today is Jean's 50th Birthday, don't worry if you missed it as she REALLY didn't want to celebrate it and was emphatic about parties etc, there will be NO celebrations, not until there is something to celebrate.
For those people that did send cards, flowers and gifts a huge thank you. I think it cheered her up I can't tell she wailed every time she opened another card.
We visited the new consultant on Friday, Mr Simon Radley, he said the right things to Jean, including the fact that he could not detect a tumour in the buttock, and she came away reasonably cheered up. Then on Friday evening she went down hill waking me up several times to tell me she was scared, then getting cross with me when I dropped off. Saturday was bad, my parents visited and she wailed all the way through (I can understand that), she can't help it she is just so emotional, anything can set her off.
The current plan is CT scan on Wednesday the 17th, flexible
Sigmoidoscopy on Monday the 22nd, at which time the analysis of the scan will be delivered to us. As ever keeping everything crossed.
Wednesday - 10/09/08 As it has been over a week since I last posted I thought I best got something out.
Last Friday was a shocker Jean was suicidal very very depressed, then Saturday and Sunday were very good in relative terms, we even managed to visit Touchwood for 45 minutes. Then it happened, Jean was asked to visit Dr Geh on Monday and explained her concerns to him.
He carried out a physical examination and reported that he could feel 'some thickening' which could be down to scarring from the radiotherapy, but just in case he is arranging another consultant to have a look with a scope.
For the next couple of hours Jean was that famous Irishman Phil O'Sophical then she cracked, partially my fault as she thought I had been involved in a traffic accident when in actual fact I was next door talking to our neighbour.
Tuesday was just horrendous Jean was more upset and distressed than I have seen her for a very long time. Coincidentally Ruth was visiting so she did pick up towards the end of the day.
She's ok at the moment having taken more medication but she is wholly convinced the tumour is back and not only that there is another tumour which is affecting her buttocks and legs. I hope she is wrong
Tuesday - 02/09/08 Wow, that certainly provoked a response I think reaction ranged from the typical 'report him' to 'give me his name and address and I am going round with a Baseball bat!'. The matter has been fed back, but to be honest if we were to report him a) I am not sure what would be gained b) it would be a case of he said, she said and c) most importantly I really don't believe the strain would be good for Jean.
At the moment Jean is up and down, Saturday was a shocker, Sunday was ok, Monday was relatively good, and today we are heading back down.
As yet we have no news on a rearranged appointment. Thanks for all your concern and support.
Thursday - 28/08/08

Well since my last posting we have had something of a roller coaster ride, relatively speaking Jean had a good day on Bank Holiday Monday her energy levels were on the up and some small indications that the anaemia might be improving, but has gone down hill since in a big way.
Some of this is physical but a huge proportion is mental.
She has been experiencing some worrying side effects which cause her to be convinced the original tumour is making a come back and this is trashing her.
I have waited 48 hours before posting this part as I wondered whether my judgement had been clouded but it hasn’t. You can see from my last post Ruth the Macmillan nurse, who Jean gets along with very well, was to arrange for their consultant to visit, their consultant fundamentally deals with the symptoms of treatment as opposed to the oncologist (Dr Geh) who deals with the treatment. Ruth called on Tuesday to advise that the whereabouts of the aforementioned incoming consultant were unclear and so she was going to get the current consultant to visit. On arrival he was privy to some of Jeans medical history and over 20 minutes gleaned some further information from us, after which time he asked Jean if she thought she was cured and secondly if she thought she would ever be cured. Jean said she didn’t think she was cured because of some of her physical symptoms, which in turn was what was causing a lot of the mental problems, and secondly that Dr Geh had never talked about cure only control.
This guy then proceeded to tell Jean in no uncertain terms that the tumour was still there, it was going to kill her and her days were numbered. He stopped short of telling Jean how long she had left as at the moment ‘she looked so well’! The guy almost seemed to delight in imparting this news and in my view was vindictive, particularly as whilst Jean was out of the room he had enquired of me how she was handling it mentally, and I had given him a truthful answer, on her return it was as if he had decided to twist the knife.
He may well prove to be right but nobody who is sick and recovering from a terminal illness wants to hear news delivered in such a callous way. Jean bless her, became visibly upset and I wasn’t far away, but she managed to compose herself and recover.
She has since dismissed this man as a 'prize chump' or words to that affect, but clearly it has affected her mental state, and it is not something that you can easily forget.
A number of people have said report him, we won’t be doing that, but what he did was morally wrong and in my experience the antithesis of the good work that Macmillan do.
We have a call in to Dr Geh to try and bring the scan forward in an attempt to allay Jean's fears.


Friday - 22/08/08 Not a fat lot to report really but wanted to wish everyone a Good Bank Holiday weekend, lets hope for some good weather.
Jean has seen some marginal improvement over the week, Monday was a shocker but as the week has gone on, we appear to be back on an even keel, still lots of discomfort lots of lying around but its timing is predictable and that in itself helps.
Went to the GPs yesterday and he is reasonably happy with what's going on, back to see him in 3 weeks. Ruth the Macmillan nurse is going to arrange a visit to their consultant who deals in the side/after affects of treatment. Jean is simply counting the days to the next scan/consult in mid September, and is confident it will be bad news. I'm simply counting the very wet days quackone, quacktwo, quackthree.......
Saturday -16/08/08 Things haven't really been that good since my last posting,
Jean has been in quite a bit of discomfort and unable to do much at all. We did have a little respite on Friday Jean managed to feel quite good and took herself off into the village.
This might not seem like much to most of us but it is a big step for her. We seem to be unable to comprehend what causes the pain, its weird that it can be there most of the time and then just simply disappear. The doctors are still saying that its consistent with radiotherapy treatment. In some people it will last for weeks in others it can least for years.
If it only it would disappear more than it appears, that would be a different story!
Sunday - 10/08/08 Well I have heard it said if it wasn't for bad luck I wouldn't have any luck at all. There I was tickets booked, accounts closed, currency converted and bags packed to go off to one of those Eastern European babes, a certain Georgian lady called Miss Imgonna Ripuov, and guess what the Russians invade - just my ruddy luck.
Meanwhile back in the Bat Cave..... things are still the same, lots of pain, lots of time to let your mind work overtime and quite a few tears.
Jean is officially signed off sick at least until early September, just prior to the next CT scan. She would like to return to work at least part time, but both physically and mentally it's just too much. If we could just stop the physical then it would have a huge effect on the mental side of things.
Hope you are all enjoying the British Summer Weather!!!
Friday - 08/08/08


I know that a number of people check this site whilst at work or in airports so whilst there is not much to report, here is an update. The current medication seems to have put things back to 'normal', so no tummy ache and not so much depression, but sadly it is not making any headway toward the pain control, not that we expected it to.
Jean has left out the sleeping tablets for the past 3 nights, but for 2 of the 3 nights has had very little sleep, consequently today she feels very drained and is currently flat out in bed drifting in and out of sleep.
To some people it may seem that this has been dragging on for an awfully long time, it has, but what we need to remember is that her last bout of treatment finished on the 24th of June that's 6 weeks ago and in chemoradiotherapy terms that is no time at all. Combine this with the other 2 treatments she has received and it is a wonder the poor girl is as well as she is.
For the medically minded her weight is steady and her appetite, for some foods, is good. Her tastes and eating habits have changed. We know she is anaemic, this partially explains the lack of energy, and have been advised that a blood transfusion may be the only way to get over this. One of our friends has advised a special drink for women.
"To infinity and beyond!"
Sunday - 03/08/08

me and my shadow or how I spend most of my days

For a long time we had hoped that removing the stents would result in some improvement in lower back pain, sadly this has not been the case, but conversely Jean hasn't deteriorated so on the whole the stent removal has to be a good thing.
The bad news is that the lower back and buttock pain are proving to be a damn nuisance. Jean can't sit or lie down without experiencing difficulties and likewise standing is not that much better. This prevents us from doing so much, even short journeys in the car are painful, and I couldn't tell you the last time we even watched a TV programme together in the lounge. Both of Jean's 'relapses' have occurred after she has been sitting for a comparatively short while, 2 hours.
This has caused more discontent and resulted in a visit to Dr Heywood last Friday. We have reverted back to Diclofenac and moved away from the Naproxen which was causing bad tummy ache; which is ironic as I have recently noticed this latter drug being advertised on the TV for period pain!
Mentally this is all becoming a bit too much for Jean and she could really do with some respite from the pain in order that she gets back on an even keel.
Unbelievably it is now more than 8 months since Jean was called back to the surgery as something was amiss. Lets hope that one day soon we can say it has all been worth it.
Wednesday - 30/07/08 Jean has had the stents removed and Mr Doherty was very pleased with what he could see, advising that there are no strictures and everything looks 'lovely'. This is a real psychological boost for Jean! A follow up has been arranged for the end of August.
She was discharged early evening so spent last night at home, she had a reasonable nights sleep but is still experiencing some pain in the lower back and buttocks which causes difficulty in sitting or lying for any length of time. Her GP has advised that this is all consistent with the radiotherapy treatment.
Sunday - 27/07/08 Jean has been doing very well for the last 4 days. The start of the week was dreadful, but on Wednesday things started to look up. There has been a minor relapse within the last 24 hours, but I think we need to accept there will be good days and there will be bad days.
On Tuesday Jean goes in for the stent removal/replacement. She should be in for 24 hours.
Sunday - 20/07/08 First the Good News - Jean drove herself into work on Thursday intending to stay for about an hour but she was actually there for nearly 3 hours, returning upbeat and pleased with the visit.
Now the Bad News - she has been absolutely dreadful since. She spent all day Friday in bed, exhausted in pain and as a result depressed. Things barely improved on Saturday and Saturday night was a shocker. Despite taking a sleeping tablet and her regular pain killers she had bad pain in her buttocks and legs and could not get to sleep. More tears more depression, she is still convinced the original treatment did not work. I have suggested an independent
Sigmoidoscopy or a scan; at least it would be confirmation one way or the other, otherwise I think we are going to have this anguish until September.
Ruth, the Macmillan nurse, previously advised that she felt that this was the worst period, she appears to be right.
Since my last posting I have had several proposals of marriage mainly from Eastern European women, who seem to think I have a lingerie business. They all profess their undying love and say they want to come to this country to meet me as I am a Good English man, who can help them lead a better life. Strangely they are all young, absolutely stunning and university educated.
Jean is still of the opinion that it is not a good idea - "Just replying to a few emails dear"
Sunday - 13/07/08 Guess what - I spoke too soon! It really has been a week of ups and downs, one pain subsides and another comes to the fore. Jean has been weary, had some unusual and unexpected pains in the pelvic area, and has been told she probably has osteoarthritis which is a known side effect of the radiotherapy, she has also been advised that she is very close to being depressed. Of course the latter condition is totally understandable; personally (being medically certified) I just think she needs a couple of relatively 'pain free' and 'exhausted free' weeks. This would be a huge boost and then she might feel more like her old self.
A return to work at the moment is not just out of the question its impossible, she can't sit for much more than 15 minutes and even after 15 minutes she is in trouble.
I have offered to go away on my own so she can have some respite from me but she doesn't seem to think this is a good idea - not sure why? Mind you I would have to brush up on my chat up lines the last one I had any success with was "Would you like some silk stockings fraulein?"
Monday - 07/07/08

Rabsy! Rabsy! get me a chocolate drink!

Well I don't want to speak too soon but there has been a lot of improvement: the back pain is still there but not so bad; the abdo pain is subsiding which is really good news; the 'burns' are repairing nicely; the mouth is no longer sore; and the taste buds are improving.
Whether it's time, diet (i.e. the energy drinks), or drugs we can't say, and to be honest I don't care, but the plan seems to be coming together.
Jean and I have walked between the showers to the village for the last 3 days to get a little exercise, Jean went to the local garden centre with Sally yesterday and came back with this hat (see pics to the left and below). Too soon to get excited but I am pleased to be bringing comparatively good news.
For info regarding burns, her pelvic burns from Jan/Feb are still deeply discoloured.
She still has an upset tummy but we think this is due to the antibiotics.
No news on the stent removal/replacement yet.
"Just checking my emails dear!"
Friday - 04/07/08

Jean and her asphalt like skin

Jean had a dreadful day on Tuesday she was in really bad pain from her back. On Wednesday morning we called Dr Geh's secretary, Dr Geh then arranged to see us that evening. In the intervening period the pain subsided but we carried on with a blood test and a CT scan, and the consult.
The joint medical opinion appears to be that one of the stents had become partially blocked (the urine crystallises obstructing the tube) and this in turn had probably caused pressure on the kidney, subsequently the stent had unblocked causing some blood in the urine but relieving the pain. Up until this point I have not been wholly convinced about the wisdom of private medical care; I think today's experience probably goes a long way to justifying it, as I doubt we would have had such a rapid and comprehensive response from the NHS.
Since Wednesday night Jean has been a lot better but is still drained, she of course expects to be up and at it and its just not happening, but apart from these minor setbacks she is improving steadily day by day. Her 'burn' in the neck area has now started to peel revealing new pink flesh.
She is now taking high energy drinks to restore some of her fat, sorry formerly svelte (or should that be asphalt) like figure. Well you didn't seriously think I was going to fork out on a complete new wardrobe did you?, and BUPA doesn't stretch to replacement clothing!
"Of course dear, on my way!"
Enjoy the weekend if you can, the weather is supposed to be dreadful.
Monday -30/06/08 Jean has had some ups and downs over the weekend feeling very depleted on occasion, and suffering with abdo and back pain. Just been to see Dr Geh and I am taking it as good news but Jean is not so upbeat, anyway he doesn't want to see her until mid September (that's 3 months away) having a scan in the preceding week as part of Dr Roy-Choudhury's 3 month scan of the liver. Jean would like the stents out and Dr Geh is following up with Mr Doherty.
Friday - 27/06/08 Jean has hardly left bed this week, and certainly has not left the house since Tuesday's zapping. She has very little energy and the dreaded abdo pain is still causing problems. This in turn causes some highs and lows, as you would expect.
Hopefully one day we will be able to look back at this treatment and say it was all worth it! On the positive side the radiotherapy 'burn' appears to be subsiding and hasn't caused anything like the grief of the original treatment to the pelvic area. Sadly her ability to dish out orders has not been diminished! "Just coming dear!"
Tuesday - 24/06/08 Hooorrraaaahhhh. Well and truly cooked the last of the 17 zaps today - that's a total of 42 over the 6 month period, plus 3 separate inpatient weeks of chemo, plus liver ablation, oh and the stents which still have to come out.
I would like to report that we are going out to celebrate but that won't be the case for a couple of weeks yet.
At this stage Jean is showing a small amount of discolouration around the neck but on past experience we think that this could intensify over the next week. Her suntan is camouflaging most of the 'burn' but the Biafine (thanks Deb) really does seem to be doing its job.
She has lost some weight and she does have some minor concern, putting it back on in the right places being one of them!
Her taste buds appear to be recovering slowly and, all in all, she's not doing too badly. The abdo pain still remains the biggest problem, that and the effects of radiotherapy which can be very draining. Yesterday and most of the weekend she was confined to bed for most of the day.
Back to Dr Geh on Monday the 30th for a follow up.
Friday - 20/06/08 Slight delay today as the computer that controls all of the machines had gone down, ruddy IT we would be better of without it.
So 15 down and 2 to go; Jean was panicking that today's session would be cancelled and we would have to extend by a day, but fortunately she was zapped but 2 hours late. To be fair to the QE, in a total of 40 zaps so far I think this is only the second major delay Jean has had. In the meantime we went to see Dr Geh who is very happy with the progress and advised that the aforementioned CT scan is also showing a reduction in the Lymph nodes and remember that the CT scan was over 10 days ago. So that's more good news this week; lets hope we keep going in that direction. Have a good weekend.
Tuesday - 17/06/08 Just a quick update, just received an email from Dr Roy-Choudhury regarding last weeks CT scan; he is very pleased with what he can see and described the liver as looking gorgeous, so that is excellent news and a real boost to Jean's morale. There is no sign of anything that could be causing the Paraethesia. Stick with this page and people will think you had alphabet soup for lunch.
Friday - 13/06/08 Just returned from Radiotherapy and a visit to Dr Geh. Dr Geh is reasonably happy with what's happening, difficult to tell with the paraaortics but reckons the supraclavicular's (the neck/collar bone area) are shrinking nicely. Jean is experiencing difficulty with taste and with soreness of the mouth. Were having difficulty finding things to eat: jelly and ice cream. rice pudding, bananas, yoghurts and soft boiled eggs are ok, pineapple which was recommended is a definite no no, we nearly had a new loft hatch!
Looking on the internet there doesn't appear to be a definitive answer as to how long this could last. Some of her mouth/taste symptoms are being caused by the chemo and some by the radiotherapy, because of where it is clipping. Estimates on recovery of taste range from 6 - 8 weeks to one poor chap who still had problems 11 years afterwards. Apparently some people never recover.
It's good stuff this chemoradiotherapy I would recommend it if your fed up sticking pins in your eyes!
The abdo pain is still there and has not altered, the natural assumption is that it is related but of course it could be some other ailment.
Jean had a CT scan on the 11th but we do not have the results as yet, this was to review the liver ablation.
Good news 2 days off before we go again.
Tuesday - 10/06/08 2nd day of radiotherapy as an outpatient, so zap number 7 of 17. Unfortunately, Jean is reacting differently this time around to the chemo and the radiotherapy. Whereas previously all food tasted good this time most food is tasteless or tastes bitter. She is also experiencing quite a bit of nausea. The radiotherapy is also 'clipping' her neck and this in turn is causing a sore throat and causing some minor difficulty swallowing; this is expected to get worse. Thinks - that might stop her nagging me, every cloud has a silver lining!
Saturday - 07/06/08 Jean back home now, apart from the sickness she has experienced she has reacted quite well so far to this latest round of chemo, her colour is good and in herself she is reasonably ok. It's just this damn inexplicable pain in her side which is getting worse, and that in turn is causing her some anguish. Dr Geh says he is keeping an 'open mind' about it and Jean interprets this negatively.
The bad news is that now she is home she is on to me, why haven't you done this, when are you going to do that, bring me this, fetch me that. Oh I have missed her (NOT!), I wished I had taken the opportunity when we were on board ship, "what splash? I didn't hear one"
Wednesday - 04/06/08 Half way through, 2 days of chemo to go. Jean is ok but a little upset, Dr Geh has no idea what the abdo pain is, and is advising that they will deal with it after the treatment, Jean of course is fearing the worst and is tearful. He has advised that he has revisited the scans and can not see anything unusual so is sticking with his pinched nerve theory. He has advised that Jean is likely to experience more sickness this time because of where they are targeting.
The guys were still working on the path!, but there is a correction it does have 22 slabs not 16.
Tuesday - 03/06/08 07:55 Just a quick note may update later; Jean went in yesterday arriving just after 09:30, Dr Geh had been alerted about Jean's pain so he visited. He and his colleagues have no idea what it is but think it might be that a nerve is being pinched by the paraaortic lymph nodes hence the sensation/pain Jean is experiencing, and will monitor it. Then Jean had to wait until 15:15 before the treatment started - don't ask me, parties in breweries come to mind. They connected up the 5FU and injected the other chemo Mitomycin (I think). Then she was off to radiotherapy at 15:50. Later that evening she had a reaction to the chemo and had been sick at least 7 times by 10:30 last night. Her phone is off this morning and whilst I could call the room I am not disturbing her to find out how she is yet - hence a later update.
Spoke to Jean at 08:30 they managed to get the anti sickness medicine right and she slept ok through to about 06:00, reasonably jolly.
On arrival we requested the room she had on her first visit as she can watch the world go by. She is keeping her eye on the builders laying a 16 slab path, 5 men took all day Monday, apparently there are now 8 men looking at it and have been doing so for the past 1 and a half hours, and all this is supervised by someone we know - sounds like a good use of public funds!!!
btw the curtains have been changed see below 21/01/08.
Monday - 01/06/08

Jean May 2008

Sorry there were no updates whilst we were away, it would have been possible but difficult.
Firstly the good news we had a good holiday and for the most part Jean was pleased for the break, and our travelling companions Chris and Sue were very understanding.
Unfortunately before we went away Jean was experiencing some pains in her abdomen, the skin being very sensitive to touch (almost like shingles) but there was nothing visible, and we consulted a few people before we went, all of whom were baffled. There is still nothing visible but the discomfort has intensified, none of the pills we have will touch the pain, and as so many times before this clearly causes consternation and tears.
Consequently, and Jean can not believe this herself, she is looking forward to going into hospital tomorrow, in the hope that they can get to the bottom of this and sort something out. Of course we are all hoping we are on the final leg and this is the beginning of the end of Jeans 6 month battle. How time flies when your having fun!!
Wednesday -21/05/08 First of all congratulations to Shirley Finlay who ran the Manchester 10k last weekend and raised £1,630 (at the last count) for Bowel Cancer UK, thanks to everyone who made a donation and I know a lot of you did. Her initial target was £400, so a massive 400% increase on last year.
We are off on a break for a few days and hopefully Jean will be able to focus on other things. Clearly the upcoming treatment is of concern and not knowing how the existing treatment has gone can also cause big worries. Throughout the past 5 months Jean has tried to be positive and because of her upbringing put on a brave face and get back to work. We still both feel that this was the right thing to do BUT physically the body is not ready for it, and what was entirely possible 12 months ago puts a strain on the body today. We don't feel that this has caused any setbacks, but it is frustrating for Jean and can cause aches and pains which in turn start the mind racing.
Hope you all have a good Spring Break and we hope to post some jolly pics of Jean climbing the rock wall (not), or diving off the back of the ship assisted by me, when we are 200 miles out at sea!

This is me now (Jean) - I am going to wear my life vest the whole time just in case!
Thanks for all being such wonderful friends - it is lovely to know you still think of us after 5 months of this nonsense. Hopefully I am on the home strait (straight?) now regarding treatment - even so life is good, husband is the best, and I'm looking forward to getting off the medical roundabout for a while!

Monday - 12/05/08 Just returned from a visit to Dr Geh, we return tomorrow for a session on the simulator which will be used to plan the radiotherapy treatment. Jean has been very good all weekend managing to attend a 60th Birthday Party for an hour on Saturday Night, the first time she has been out in the evening since before Christmas. Whilst it was only 60 minutes, arriving home at 21:45, it did take its toll.
Dr Geh is fairly confident, he has revised his treatment and is now planning 17 zaps of Radiotherapy with the first week spent in hospital for the chemo. This is planned to start on Monday the 2nd of June.
In theory the burns should not be so bad this time, and fortunately they are not in such a sensitive position, but because of its position it could upset the bowel and cause some discolouration on the neck. Hopefully our previous experiences will help.
Thursday - 08/05/08 Well all we can say is that previous recipients of this ablation treatment must have been men because whilst Jean has not been top hole there have been no flu like symptoms, no aches and pains, no headaches, some slight drowsiness and feeling a bit woozy but really nothing at all!
Better still when the 2 plasters were removed there were no holes or scars, we were expecting something to show for Jeans troubles but the entry wounds are extremely difficult to detect. Well done Dr Roy-Choudhury and team.
So physically Jean appears good, mentally she is still wobbly, as we would expect, and the next lot of treatment can't come soon enough.
We visit Dr Geh on Monday then we think a CT scan on Tuesday for 'alignment/specification' of the next dose of chemoradiotherapy.
Monday -05/05/08 Jean came out of hospital yesterday, having received visits from Dr Geh and Dr Roy-Choudhury, both are pleased with her results, as far as they can tell. We visit Dr Geh next Monday then a CT scan on Tuesday, so he can plan the next dose of chemoradiotherapy which will be early June. There should also be a follow up CT circa the 2nd of June to check the radiofrequency ablation.
Jean feels a little tender, something like a couple of rounds with Miss Piggy; she says it is as if someone has punched her in the shoulder and kicked her in the stomach, but she is quite chirpy, eating and drinking as normal. She's in bed at present waiting for the dreaded flu like symptoms to manifest themselves.
Saturday - 03/05/08 Just been to visit Jean she looks quite well but feels a little bashed about. Eating well, didn't sleep too well but I guess that's understandable. Dr Roy-Choudhury is pleased with his work and expects her to come out tomorrow (Sunday) much to Jeans' annoyance as it's Roast Beef with all the trimmings for lunch!
Friday -25/04/08 So we have been to see Dr Roy-Choudhury who is confident that he can carry out the Radiofrequency ablation with a bit of jiggery pokery, and intends to perform the procedure next Friday the 2nd of May. Contrary to my previous note, in the UK this is not done as a day patient and Jean will stay in for 48 to 72 hours. Following that the immune system will kick in and she will feel like she has the flu (lets hope its not man flu); this should last for the week. Results are encouraging but no so good as surgery (see below). Jean is fairly upbeat about this.
I guess most of us feel as if Jean has been through the worst and things are getting better, I hope we are right but I'm issuing a 'health warning' here. The ablation is next week and this will be closely followed by 15 shots of combined chemoradiotherapy. The thought of either of these treatments would be enough to upset if not 'destroy' most people, and I'm not sure it will be over even then. Dr Roy-Choudhury has already advised that by committing to this treatment then you need to have regular CT scans at 1, 3, 7 and 12 months. As some of you may know who have experienced cancer first hand CT results can be testing and traumatic times.
Monday -21/04/08 Jean had the PET scan last Thursday and we visited Dr Geh today for the results. The PET confirmed what the CT scan, had said so today's theory is that giving Jean Liver surgery, which generally produces very satisfactory results, would not be possible and would delay any further treatment. So as indicated last week they intend to perform the Radio Frequency ablation. This is generally done as a day patient. He then intends to treat the paraaortic lymph nodes with 15 shots (3 weeks) chemoradiotherapy with 1 week being spent in hospital. The PET scan shows that the pelvic region responded very well to this form of treatment and he is very hopeful that the lymph nodes will respond in the same way. So back to see the Liver surgeon this week he will assess and advise Jean and book her in for the radio frequency treatment.
On the positive side Jean feels and looks quite well. Her strength is building steadily, she is eating well and gaining some weight. She still has one or two minor problems in the pelvic area and we know that whilst externally she has healed well she is still repairing internally.
Monday -14/04/08 I wish I could be bringing you some goods news but unfortunately that is not the case, it's not bad news, but it's not the news we had hoped for; particularly as on the face of it Jean looks and feels quite well.
The paraaortic lymph nodes are still the same size. The lesions in the liver have grown; one is now about 2 cm which we thought was large but Dr Geh is not too phased. Consequently Jean will have a PET scan this week to confirm the CT scan, then Dr Geh and his colleagues will decide whether to treat the liver or the lymph nodes first. The lymph nodes mean more chemoradiotherapy, not so prolonged this time. He may treat the liver using Radio Frequency therapy which means inserting a probe into the liver and 'cooking' the cancer. Dr Geh is still encouraged and feels that he can beat it or control it. Back to see him next Monday after the PET scan results.
Tuesday - 08/04/08 Well I guess no news is good news. Jean steadily improves day by day, still some way off normal but not so most people would notice. Jean went for the CT scan yesterday, and whilst they probably could have said something they didn't. Everyone was treated the same so we are not suspicious at this stage. If you don't know if you ever have to have a CT scan you usually drink at least 2 types of liquid and may be injected with a third. This is 'contrast' so that the rays are blocked. It smells and tastes like aniseed. Jean had to drink a litre in the 60 minutes beforehand. Yum Yum (Not)!
Keepin 'em crossed for next week.
Monday - 31/03/08 Good News, we visited Dr Geh today and he was only 40 minutes late! But seriously he examined Jean and says if he didn't know that there had been a cancer there, he wouldn't have a clue from the examination he had just conducted. This is excellent news but I don't want to get too euphoric.
His diagnosis needs to be confirmed by a CT scan and this will also show how the chemo has affected the lymph nodes and the liver. He has tentatively mentioned more radiotherapy but won't commit until we have had the CT scan. The scan should be next week and we visit him for his diagnosis on the 14th of April.
Thursday - 27/03/08 Not much to report really. The Macmillan nurse came on Tuesday and couldn't believe Jean's progress and how well she looked. She's coming again next week after our visit to Dr Geh (Monday 31st).
Jean continues to have the occasional 'wobble', but nothing too major. She's still finding being out of her comfort zone (the house) and away from me quite difficult, and so the couple of occasions she has returned to work have not been easy. But looking at Jean we tend to forget it's still early days and we are making progress. The next biggy, which can't come soon enough, is the CT scan which should be within 2 weeks. That will either be a huge boost or a massive blow. Lets hope it's the former.
Friday - 21/03/08 First of all may I wish you all a Happy Easter, we both hope that the weather doesn't dampen the first major holiday of the year.
So how did the return to work go?, well it was good and bad; Jean was only there for a couple of hours but came away feeling that she achieved something mentally and work wise, the but being that she didn't return all week.
I was only thinking on Wednesday how good Jean had been mentally, I had really expected what Jean and I refer to as a 'wobble' in this period between treatment and assessment, and it hadn't really happened, but then on Thursday and Friday we had a major wobble. Due to a couple of 'complications' Jean is convincing herself that the treatment hasn't worked and of course is very upset, nothing I seem to say can lift her from this belief, but I keep trying. Mom and Dad used to say I was very trying - is that good?
The CT scan can't come soon enough for Jean but as I have pointed out its never really over, there will always be a check up on the horizon, and the slightest twinge will cause consternation. I may be wrong but I think Jean has to accept this horrible fact and build it in to her life not treat it like a millstone. Easier said than done methinks!
Monday - 17/03/08 On the whole things are quite positive, there are one or two 'minor' problems and these are causing Jean some discomfort and consternation. But we are getting there and we must remember it's now the beginning of calendar week 12 and Jean's tangible treatment finished end of calendar week 8, so just over 3 weeks on.

Jean is attempting to go back to work today just for a couple of hours to see how she gets on. She would find it difficult to sit for any length of time at the moment. This might sound remarkable and knowing intimately what she has been through I admire her attitude. Only 2 weeks ago I didn't imagine she would return so quickly.
When we found out about Jean we drew up a 'cancer beating plan', or rather I did. I would do the same again but to be honest it was rubbish. Part of that plan was to continue going to work feeling needed and having a purpose. It very soon became clear that that was untenable, but here we are and Jean is making some positive steps without any encouragement from me, in fact I was surprised when she told me last week.
During this period of treatment other issues have been going on in the background, and the company that Jean works for has been bought out. Jean was of course a senior well respected Director at the company and until her illness was expected to play a significant part in the negotiations. We have been aware of this and clearly this major issue has impacted upon Jean in a mental rather than a physical way.
I will keep you appraised as to the effects the return to work is having.
Tuesday - 11/03/08 I know a lot of you want to know how our visit went yesterday, well in mine and Jean's view it was most unsatisfactory. Having arrived early Dr Geh eventually saw us 1 hour late. I know he's a busy man but....
To be honest Jean and I think he was preoccupied and under some pressure but is that an excuse?
As regards the consultation it was a waste of time. He his still quite happy with Jeans progress, he was quite dismissive of Jeans burns. He did bring up some uncomfortable facts (see original notes) for Jean and she needed some consoling on the way home. We go back and see him on March the 31st, at which time he says he will arrange a CT scan for a couple of weeks later.
Having said all of that Jean is much improved, quite upbeat but she does get weary as the day progresses.
Friday - 07/03/08 Things are looking up, but best not to get too carried away. Jean is walking much better, the new skin looks pink and healthy and things are much improved in the loo department. Still some cystitis but on the wane.
The nurse was quite happy with what she could see, she has returned again today, taken a urine sample and a swab of the wound but she is just making sure. She is as confident as she can be that there is no infection. She figures that within a couple of days things will be much better burn wise.
We visit Dr Geh on Monday. Jean says she's "going to punch his lights out" for not warning her that this could happen.


Tuesday - 04/03/08

ooooohh ooooohhh o me bums on fire

Well the weekend was a shocker, Jean was rarely off the toilet.
We weren't sure but something was disagreeing with Jean either the after effects of the treatment, the anti-inflammatory drugs or the antibiotic drugs; so she stopped taken them and just took Loperamide (Imodium) and co-codamol (codeine). This seemed to calm things down quite considerably and Monday turned out to be quite uneventful in comparison.
We also seem to be heading in the right direction today, with one 'minor' setback but were tackling that. Visibly the inflammation is subsiding, decency laws prevent me from publishing the pictures here, but not something you would wish on any woman or man for that matter; packs of frozen vegetables have proven to be very handy.
Physically, other than dashing to the loo, she hasn't been out of bed for 11 days now.
Mentally for the most part Jean is on an even keel, she does have her odd moments, but I have to remind her how "lucky" she has been and how bad things are for some poor souls we have read about.
The Macmillan nurse pays her first visit tomorrow afternoon.


Saturday - 01/03/08 Thursday and Friday were a really bad time for Jean: bad cystitis; bad diarrhoea; and the burns at the front are causing lots of pain. Like any burn the skin is dry and not supple so there are problems walking and generally moving. Although I must say Jean has perfected the 10m dash to the bathroom. Eventually the doctor came to see us on Friday, and this helped Jean mentally, although after his visit the diarrhoea was worse than ever Jean spending 2 hours in the bathroom on Friday night. We think things are getting better a dose of Imodium appears to be working - at last. The doctor advised that the burns should be at their peak now - lets hope he's right.
Wednesday - 27/02/08 The last few days have not been too clever, after the relative comfort of Sunday, things have deteriorated markedly and Jean spent all of Tuesday confined to bed. She is experiencing pain both front and rear, it is known that the radiotherapy causes cystitis. The oncology nurse has advised that internally she will literally be red raw hence the excruciating pain when she goes to the loo, which is often as she is still getting diarrhoea. Of course all of this physical pain causes mental anguish.
It' still very early days and whilst the chemoradiotherapy delivery may have stopped it is still having an affect and is likely to do so for a number of weeks.

Jean has lost some weight, about half a stone since the treatment started. I guess we would expect some change in weight either positive or negative but in view of Jean's diet and diarrhoea we don't feel that this is too drastic.

One step at a time.
Monday - 25/02/08

Well, hello to any lovely souls who have been kind enough to stay in touch with my exploits over the last few weeks.

I must thank you all for all your kindness to me and for the moral support for Steve – poor man. I don’t think he signed up for this but he has come up trumps.

Saturday was a bit weird, Sunday I felt fab and could do everything …uh oh not so fast methinks….. so today I have taken it steady and, starting to feel a bit more normal.

I have an appointment with my consultant in 2 weeks time so it is up to me now to keep the mental state positive and help build the body back up. The mental attitude is the hard bit but, hey, after all the support you have given me it is my duty to put some effort in and conquer this – so here goes!

All my love and thanks. 



Saturday - 23/02/08 Hoooooooorrrrrrrraaaaaaaahhhhhh Well and truly zapped. 25 days of chemoradiotherapy are over. Jean is feeling quite well but a bit sore, and of course is glad to be home, well actually glad to be out of hospital, how could anybody be pleased to be with me!

Jean will try and compose something herself in the next couple of days.
Wednesday - 20/02/08 3 days down and 2 to go. Jean is quite positive and quite happy but she wants to come home.
Dr Geh has visited everyday this week and is quite happy with what is going on.

Meanwhile back at the ranch I'm washing, ironing, and cooking - no change there then. At least I'm having a break from the 'creosoting'!
1Monday - 8/02/08 Jean back in today after what has been a very tearful weekend; mentally we are back to where we were before the treatment started.
Different room this time smaller but adequate and on the plus side the curtains are the same length!
Dr Geh has been to visit Jean, quite pleased with the way things are progressing and doesn't feel she should get much more burning (let's hope so).
Thankfully Jean improved markedly (mentally) as the day went on.

Thanks to everyone for their kind thoughts, words, cards and flowers.
Friday - 15/02/08 How time flies when you're having fun, well here we are end of week 4 and just one week of treatment to go. Next week Jean is back in the QE full time having the combined chemo and radiotherapy.
Things are quite positive, unfortunately the skin has succumbed and broken down but the nurses and the doctor are quite optimistic and say they have seen much much worse.
Gentian Violet needs to be applied twice a day, whilst Jean bends over and touches her toes. It gets everywhere and stains everything a violet colour, I therefore propose to carry out the application of the GV in the back garden wearing a 'miners helmet' equipped with torch, a yellow plastic apron, purple latex gloves and a creosote brush, oh yes and a peg on my nose if I have to get that close!

Unfortunately Steve dosed off this week whilst Jean was being zapped, next thing he knew Kevin the porter had taken him back to the ward!

Thanks to all who have pledged to Shirley.

Friday - 08/02/08


Hoorrraahhhh end of week 3, things are quite positive, Dr Geh is quite happy, he would be, he's off to London for half term, and things are progressing pretty much as hoped. Some stinging today but thankfully 2 days respite from the radiotherapy.
On a lighter note, they play music when you are being zapped. Today, as Jean's bum was being lined up, Dancing Cheek to Cheek was playing. Jean pointed this out to the radiotherapists which caused much merriment and they had to start all over again.

Lets hope they don't have Johnny Cash and Ring of Fire next week!!!

Tuesday - 05/02/08

Hello everybody!

Jean has asked me to post this picture taken today the 5th of February to let you know how well she is feeling. I am assured the other end ain't looking quite so good.

The tummy has improved somewhat now that we have been provided with a diet sheet - better late than never.

Tomorrow is 13/25 so were half way there!

You get chatting to people whilst you wait for the radiotherapy, today a lady asked me (Steve) how many treatments I was having!


Friday - 01/02/08 10 down 15 to go hooraaaaahhhh. Just been for the last zap of the second week, and looking forward to 2 days off. Dr Geh is quite pleased with the progress Jean is making and having examined her is very pleased with the way the lymph nodes in the groin have responded. Overall the side effects aren't too bad: there's the 'sunburn', the radiotherapy has got to the stage where it is beginning to sting so application of cream is welcome - any volunteers?; and the tummy doesn't know whether it is coming or going, at the moment its pretty lively!
Saturday - 26/01/08 Jean is at home, she came out late on Friday afternoon. She feels remarkably well with only a couple of side effects from the chemotherapy, which she says are really no problem at all. Amazingly she has a very healthy appetite.

Thursday - 24/01/08

Jean and her friend Timmy - beats me

Jean is now half way through her first week of chemoradiotherapy, so she's pleased about that. She has felt some sickness which seems to build up over the day. At the moment she looks well and is quite upbeat. Dr Geh is pleased with the progress so far and says he can tell by touch that some of the lymph nodes in her groin are responding well to the treatment. This is good news but there is still a long way to go.
She's looking forward to coming home and being with me - blimey that chemo must be bad!




Monday - 21/01/08

Up a bit, down a bit, left a bit - Fire!

Room ok, nurses seem nice, hooked up straight away with a canullar on her wrist.
The chemo goes like this - Cisplatin over 4 hours, 5FU over 24 hours, so at times there will be 2 lines in, with Radiotherapy delivered at the same time.
Jean slept ok, breakfast was good, Dr Geh has visited and is quite confident about the tumour. At the moment Jeans biggest complaint is the curtains - one is a good 9 inches longer than the other. One of the nurses advised she was lucky they were matching!




Friday - 18/01/08

Hello to anyone who is still visiting me,

 I just thought, after the effort poor Steve has put into creating this page; I ought to pay it a visit if only to thank everyone for your kind thoughts. I have received some lovely cards and letters sending me so much warmth and comfort.

 Well, Monday is the big day – I’m off to the QE to commence ‘the fixing process’ – at last. I’m sure by lunchtime I’ll be wondering why on earth I was so keen to get going!

 Anyone who lives locally should keep an eye out for Wooster because he’s not very bright and has an uncanny knack of annoying Steve – I’m a little worried for his health (Wooster not Steve) while I’m away.

 I believe Steve has put some photos on my page – I do hope he has chosen well, preferably about 10 years ago would do since one or two lines etc have developed in recent years and there will be absolutely no photos available from Christmas 2007 for the foreseeable future (at least not without a bag over my head anyway).

 Well, this is just a big, big thank you to everyone who has been so kind and I can only try to be as strong and positive as you all think I am able. (Don’t tell anyone but I’m a total chicken on the quiet)

 See you all soon




13/01/08 As suspected we are having some ups and downs. Jean is cheery one minute and very tearful the next, the middle of the night and early mornings are the worst, but the slightest thing can cause her to have some black moments. She describes it as like 'being hit by a bullet'
Jean has tried to continue at work, we originally both thought it was a good thing, but she feels 'safest' at home, and has found it quite disconcerting at work being unable to concentrate fully. Consequently she does not intend to return before the treatment but will do some work remotely from home.

I have to say that I was of the opinion that there is no right answer, but I am coming round to Jean's way of thinking that what has been conveyed to Jean is wrong. Wrong in the sense that positive thought is recognised as a big factor in the fight, and yet since the 18th of December she has basically been told that things are very bad, consequently she finds it difficult to have positive thoughts.
Her opinion is that she should have been given 'some' information, told of the treatment, had the treatment, and then advised of the state of play. A couple of comments that have been made to her have had a massive negative effect. Is there a right answer? I don't know, but as Jean says what has been done can't be undone, and she has lost the last 4 weeks to despair and effectively is suffering from stress, something she experienced about 12 years ago when one of her work colleagues died.
Other cancer sufferers seem to have been allocated a counsellor immediately to help them come to terms with their situation. We have met Jeans counsellor once, on the day she was on the radiotherapy simulator, for approximately 2 minutes, and it wasn't that satisfactory.

I've suggested doing all sorts of nice things, but she doesn't want to do them. She feels that if we do them now there's only one reason we are doing them, and that's because she wont be able to do them in the future, which of course upsets her. Whatever happens in the next few months there is no doubt that our lives will never be the same again.



Jean started off quite cheery, GFR test (glomerular filtration rate); arrive at Priory 9:30 injected with creatinine (I think), then blood tests at 11:30, 12:30 and 13:30. This tests the kidney function and the ability to remove the toxins delivered by the chemotherapy. So we hope the tests prove satisfactory.
She became quite weary in the evening and with the weariness comes tearfulness.
In theory we have a bit of a break now before the treatment starts on the 21st, but I think this could be a long 10 days for Jean



Jean visited the oncologist Dr Ian Geh at the Priory, on Monday the 7th of January. To cut a long story short the news was pretty much as we had expected – not good but he is hopeful. 

The PET scan had confirmed the previous diagnosis i.e. the rectal Tumour which was described as aggressive, lesions in the liver which were described as very small and the paraaortic lymph nodes which are serious - more later. For location of these nodes see Paraaortic_lymph_node

For the technical the Cancer is described as Grade 4, the highest, and on the TNM scale T3, N3, M1. For more info see this TNM

Consequently he advised that the diagnosis was not quite as hopeful as originally thought however he does have a plan. Dr Geh specialises in a combination treatment of Chemo and Radiation therapy. The plan is therefore an intensive 5 week treatment of Radiotherapy, plus intensive Chemo in the first and last weeks, at which time Jean will receive 2 types of Chemo.


Because of the way the Chemo is delivered this will mean that Jean will have to stay in hospital, the Queen Elizabeth in a Private Ward. Clearly Chemo can have many side affects some of which may manifest themselves, I won’t go into them here.

The Radiotherapy is likely to lead to some soreness in week 3 this would be like sunburn with peeling and scabbing. Recovery should take 7-10 days.

This treatment will largely only deal with the tumour, hopefully the Chemo will attack the lesions in the liver and may attack the paraaortic lymph nodes. Another PET scan will be needed after the 5 week treatment to ascertain how these other ‘organs’ have reacted at which time additional treatment may be required. He may possibly try radiotherapy on the lymph nodes. He is confident about treatment in the pelvic area, far less confident about the lymph nodes and liver.

 He advised his colleagues would probably describe the paraaortic lymph nodes as inoperable, and thus terminal but he is hopeful and ‘wiling to give it a go’.

 Jean asked if he was aware of anyone else with the same symptoms and he advised he had treated a 70 year old woman with a larger tumour and more liver infection 3 years ago and she was doing well.

 Jean is to be measured up for the Radiotherapy treatment on Tuesday and at some time will have to have a test to ensure her Kidney function is up to the treatment.

 Dr Geh hopes to start treatment on Monday the 21st of January.

Jean is reasonably positive having been convinced that this was terminal, but of course is concerned about the intensive treatment she is about to receive.


Wednesday - 02/01/08

First of all my apologies for being a wuss, ideally I would like to have done this by telephone but I am sure that you will appreciate why I haven’t.

As some of you may know for some weeks Jean has been experiencing some back pain, a visit to the Doctors early in December and a subsequent blood test has resulted in a number of scans and investigations, and unfortunately on Tuesday the 18th of December Jean was diagnosed with Bowel Cancer. The back pain is being caused by a 3cm ‘mass’ pressing on the ureter, the tube from the kidney to the bladder. Clearly this has come as something of an unwelcome shock to us both, but especially to Jean and Christmas has been a difficult and tearful time.

Whilst we are still waiting for a full diagnosis/prognosis/treatment regime, there appears to be no doubt from some of the serious expressions we have seen, that the cancer is beyond the early stages (there are 4 recognised stages of cancer). To date she has had a Sigmoidoscopy (a camera up your bum), an Ultra Sound Scan, a CT scan and an MRI scan.

Today we are off for a PET scan (an injection with radioactive glucose), this should identify how far advanced the cancer is. Analysis of these scans can take up to 2 weeks, so more waiting, although having said that the treatment that Jean has received thus far has been very quick, a lot has happened in just over 3 weeks at a difficult time of the year.

We already know that the cancer is beyond the pelvic region, there is some evidence in the periaortic lymph nodes (Paraaortic lymph node) and there are possibly some lesions in the liver.

In order to try and alleviate the back pain and preserve the kidney function 2 stents have been fitted into the ureters which should prevent them from being compressed. These were fitted internally at the Priory hospital last Friday.

At this point in time the Consultant Surgeon who has handled Jean thus far, believes that this type of cancer is unusual and responds well to Chemo Radio Therapy (CRT) and would expect a 3 month intensive course. At this point no surgery is expected but the situation could change, depending on how the areas outside of the pelvic region respond to the Chemotherapy.

Jean has now been passed to a specialist in this field hence the additional tests.

At the moment whilst Jean is uncomfortable and ill she is not an invalid and is trying to carry on as normal, although I am sure that you will appreciate that this is hard.

Her biggest problem at the moment is not knowing, and she fears the worst. The time between consultations seems interminable and the slightest twinge in a different place can cause Jean’s mood to drop right down.

We have waited until now to give you this information as we did not want to affect your Christmas and New Year. At one time we intended to bluff it out over Christmas but Jean felt that she would crack on Christmas Day whilst our relatives were with us.

I am sure that you all want to express your feelings in some way but can I just say we are running out of vases, a nice card would be more than appreciated.

Because she is uncomfortable she has times when all she wants to do is lie down, hopefully this will pass, but we are sure that there are more uncomfortable times ahead, so she may or may not answer the phone, apologies in advance if you get me.

I’ll try and keep you informed of any developments. I have suggested to Jean she has a web site this would give her some ‘purpose’, would keep everyone informed and may possibly help other people who experience similar problems; but she feels it is too indulgent.

Sorry to bring you such bad news so early in 2008, but we both wish everybody all the very best for 2008; and please keep your fingers crossed on Jean’s behalf.



  Jean and Wooster the Wussy Pussy